Brr it’s so cold I’m wearing socks at home. 

Referring to the last post, I declined all appointments except going out with Cindee and I didn’t get curtains. 

I feel so guilty that I pangseh-ed all of you all. But I tak boleh tahan already. Pls someone be my chauffeur I’m getting mega tired of public transport.. now that I’m wearing heels more often. 

BAH. Why I so not happening. And I feel so tired. AH. I’m supposed to be busy.

Wildly awake. 

我不敢管你了。不想失去你的信任，虽然我担心。你要好好的。 

Sigh. I’m blogging too much. Wtf I think there are 5 posts today. I can’t sleep.

Morning – going gym with JX. I’m very lazy but she wants to go so okay…. 

Afternoon – shopping for new curtains! There’s something weirdly exciting about shopping for furniture. 

Evening – 2H dinner

Night – Clubbinggg 

YAY. I can’t stand it the weather is so good that I’m sneezing away. It feels like an air-conditioned Singapore. Like, literally.

Weather damn good! Reminds me of Taiwan.

brought the dogs out today. they seem okay already. 

Next Tues, butterfactory, little farewell for Darren haha crowd increased to Darren Ailyn Kianggei JoeyTan Charlene and ME. 

PARTTYYYY!

Ei I don’t know how to handle all my many blogs. O_O

The dogs are fighting again. And pepsi’s in the crate. 

YEAAA. 

Already prepared to go down with Darren and Ailyn this Tuesday, to emo about him going in NS. I suddenly feel so sad all my guy friends are going to enlist. So quick! 

So at 11 pm I was asked to ask Eric if he wanted to go 2H outing. Then Eric asked me to go Zouk because there is something cool going on there. Like a new DJ. He was going with GanLiying and asked if we wanted to join. So then I got very excited and then the next second I was like shit how do I get out of the house! 

So I just coolly walked out of my room and told me mum. Eh I’m going Zouk, now. Haha my mum and brother were shocked. NOW?! My brother was like, you go find boyfriend ah. My mum say, people will spike your drink. Haha after assuring her that I’ll be going with reliable friends I dressed and zoomed out in like 10 minutes. 

In the end, didn’t manage to get into ZOUK! Too many people and we went so late. Called Diana and she was there, with her friends but she couldn’t get us in either. Damn, it was 1 am and we were so disappointed. I saw Evelyn though, blackhighheels.livejournal.com. 

After that we decided to go Clarke Quay, that dreaded place where we walked around the whole night after prom. BAH. We entered in The Arena, which wasn’t bad. There was good music and we drank like 2 drinks. And I got really warm and the lights blinded me and I danced. HAHA Never knew I can dance. But then some band came on and they kind of sucked. The crowd cooled and so we went out of the club. It was so scary okay I couldn’t hear anything when I got out of the club. 

Ugh I’m burping Brandy. 

Anyway, after chilling at some random closed down pub and getting chased away, we went back in. The band was off, and we danced a little bit more. The crowd wasn’t so nice. They have like ages double of that of the people we saw at (outside) Zouk. 

In the end we decided to leave at 3 plus, and bought ben and jerry’s. Then we sat down at some random tour boat hahaha and ate ice cream. Then, it started to drizzle so we went back into shade. 

GLY has all the photos! Will post them soon soon soon! It’s high, dhs kids need to go clubbing luh. My face was so red in all photos, hate it! 

Eh should I move back to my old blog? So boring here no one reads.

OVER. my life is devoid of meaning now. 

how do you put a tagboard on wordpress.

It’s not that friends don’t ever tell me anything. It’s because I don’t ask. It’s because I’m never there. 

It’s so selfish to only think about myself and how I feel so lonely and insecure when they don’t talk to me. When they have problems they themselves feel like shit they would most probably find the person right next to them or the most comforting person they can think of. 

Guess I’m not comforting enough. That’s okay. I guess. No it’s not. Okay anyway. Don’t think. 

Why is HK trip so ex??? Is it supposed to be like this.

Kay after emo-ing and pinpointing that being too free must be the reason behind it, I have thought of things to do! 

1. ZOUK. MONDAY. 
Stupid KK dowan go w me. Last time also always ask random friends to go out w us one hor you.

2. BUNKA
Continue my Jap lessons!

3. STARBUCKS
Applied to work as a barista. God quick call me now. I wanna work.

4. PRECIOUS THOTS
Kay Cindee’s gonna cringe again. Haha they have atrium events! Quick money.

5. DANIEL YAM
Okay I don’t really wanna mention this but I applied to work here. Starbucks > Daniel Yam though! I love working with food.

6. VOLUNTEER.
Signed up for some sessions at Night Safari. If no work contacts me maybe I go ask June if there’s any vacancies! Like junior zookeeper or some office job.

7. VACATION.
C wants US, JX wants Hong Kong, I just wanna get out! I need to lift my mood.

8. PSC APPLICATION.
I kind of think there is no chance but no harm trying, right! Need to work on my Statement of Purpose bah.

9. Murdoch Uni Vet Med
They need a CV and a Personal statement!

10. PLAN SENTOSA/WHATEVER  FOR GUITAR! 
Jingwen’s doing it but I’m joining forces with her. *HUARH!!*

11. PLAN PARTY.
HEHE It’s going to be smashing.  

12 RUN AROUND VET CLINICS 
Need to get work experience!

13. RUN AROUND BANKS
Need to get money, for uni la. 

14. BOOK DRIVING LESSONS.

15. HELP OUT WITH GUITAR!  

OKAY! ENOUGH.

Now I’m busy busy busy!

It must be because of my low self-esteem that I’m feeling this way. But I haven’t felt sad in a long time. I think I’m too free. 

I’m bothered that my friends dont ever tell me anything. It sucks to hear it from second person. It puts my character in question. Is it because I’m not trustworthy? But then again if they don’t want people to know they have clearly chosen the wrong people to talk to because I hear stuff all the time, though not from their own mouths. Which makes me feel depressed. 

I am so shit. 

Ugh I need to slim down and I need to find a job. Feel good about myself and get myself busy to stop thinking about these. 

Dammit. And I need new songs on my ipod. 

I need to learn driving. Damn the crowded trains. 

And I need a vacation. Japan, US, or Hong Kong?